On Sunday nights, I have a knot in my stomach. All those nightmarish visions I had of how these weeks could have gone... yeah... most of those visions have come true at one time or another. :)
It is one thing to know that some kids' lives get worked over by neglect and abuse... it is quite another to have their lives affect the peace of your life.
Show me my best intentions... I will show you the exact moment when they dissolved. I will never mock Jonah. I will always be thankful for the mornings I woke up believing... because my heart, even on those days, would prove I didn't deserve it.
On the hubble telescope: "We looked through an opening in the sky the size of a drinking straw for about a week... and what we saw was ten thousand other galaxies with stars ten times the size of our sun."
That sentence, played across a giant television in an empty house that was not my own... made the Sunday night knot in my stomach seem so absurd.
"Your mercy, O LORD, is in the heavens. Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds. Your righteousness is like the great mountains. Your judgments are the great deep. O LORD, you preserve man and beast." psalm 36:4&5
What I know from a short stint in a "hard place"... indeed, you find the face of Jesus there. But not as one finds a fellow-soldier-in-arms... not as one sees a comrade, fellow servant, or teammate... he is the floor for me. I stand there, or I stand not at all.
His largeness is a greater comfort than his compassion. His unconquerable goodness--the kind that burns like a fire--gives more hope than mere kindness. It is my hope that... the harder the place... the larger the Lord will appear before my eyes
(Photo courtesy of HubbleSite...)
I miss you, friend! I love your perspective and your heart. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteHang in there Hannah♥
ReplyDeleteThis is kind of funny ~ At first, I thought that was a picture of the floor at your school. So, nice picture. It has a double meaning.